It is difficult to tell from the experience which follows, but the
student of the Christian Science will readily see in it that acceptance
of the truth made the overcoming of fear possible, even as in the case
if disease, and that divine Principle is to be relied upon at all times.
While the Titanic was sinking, and during the whole time I was
working at the boats, I held to the truth, thereby eliminating all
fear. I do not pretend that any man can go down on a ship at midnight,
in mid-Atlantic, and succeed in eliminating fear, without hard work. It
was hard work, and yet the very conditions which existed on the port
side were in themselves a demonstration of the workings of Truth, for
not the slightest hitch occurred, and all the boats were got away, the
last one, which was a flat-bottomed collapsible, floating off the deck.
Now it is proverbial that the last thing a sailor will think of is a
life-belt; certainly no thought had entered my head of my own
life-belt, and I was far too busy at the boats to leave them, even had
I thought of it. And this is how I came to obtain my belt.
Murdoch had been appointed chief, I was first and Blair was second officer; in that rank we had joined the Titanic in Belfast. Shortly before we sailed from Southampton, Wilde, who was formerly chief of the Olympic,
and who was to have been given command of another of the White Star
steamers, which, owing to the coal strike and other reasons was laid
up, was sent for the time being to the Titanic as chief,
Murdoch ranking back to first, myself to second, and Blair standing out
for the voyage. Now it will be seen why it was that Wilde, on wanting
some articles which were received by the first officer in Belfast, came
to me. I took him into the first officer's room and showed him where
they were, and was on my way back on deck again when I heard Wilde say,
'I am going to put on my life-belt.' At that precise moment I was
passing my own room door, facing which is a wardrobe, and on the top of
this was my own life-belt. On hearing Wilde's remark, I instinctively
looked into the room, reached for the belt, and put it on.
I now resumed my work at the boats, finally calling for men to follow
me up to the top of the officers' quarters to cut adrift the last boat,
which was stowed there. This boat we had not time even to open up, so
just hove her down to the deck from which we had launched the others.
As I saw her slide over the edge of the quarters I turned and ran
across the deck to the other side of the ship to see if anything
further could be done. Looking down I could see that all material work
was finished, so from where I was on top of the quarters and above the
bridge, I faced forward and walked into the water. The sudden immersion
in this penetratingly cold water for a few seconds overcame all
thought, and I struck out blindly for the crow's-nest which is on the
foremast and was at that time just above the water. In a couple of
seconds I realised that the cow's-nest and all other material help was
of the same value, and almost immediately I found myself drawn with
great force against the grating covering the mouth of the forward
blower, a huge ventilator leading down to the forward stokehold. In
this position I went below the surface with the ship.
I want to emphasise strongly this point, that as soon as I collected my
thoughts after taking to the water, I remember saying to myself, 'Now,
I'll see how much I have learned from Christian Science.' A doubt never
entered my mind as to the possibility of my surviving; in other words,
of the ability of the divine power to save me. I think I can
conscientiously say that with this thought all fear left me, and I
commenced again to realise the truth of being. It was at this moment
that I was drawn into the water, still realising the truth, and while I
was below the surface these words from the 91st Psalm came to me so
distinctly that I seemed to realise their full import: 'He shall give
his angels charge over thee.' Immediately, I think, I was thrown away
from the blower, and came up to find a piece of wood in my hand which
seemed to be attached to the top of the funnel by a wire.
I remained still, while the water rushed past me carrying the people
with it away from me. A second time I went down, still holding fast to
the truth, and again came to the surface.
My piece of wood was gone, but alongside me was the flat-bottomed
collapsible boat which I had thrown down on the other side of the ship.
This I laid hold of, but made no attempt to board it.
I want it to be understood that during this time in the water the fact
came calmly and clearly that there was a divine power which could be
utilised in a practical manner, and also it seemed perfectly natural to
rely on this power with the spiritual understanding which is so often
spoke of in the Bible, and which is explained in 'Science and Health
with Key to the Scriptures' by Mrs. Eddy. Now, the sinking of a great
ship like the Titanic, there was also the fear of suction to
overcome, and at this time the forward funnel fell, throwing the boat,
myself, and other survivors about twenty feet clear of the ship, so
that of suction we felt nothing.
About thirty of us floated the remainder of the night on the upturned
boat, and I could not overcome the intense cold experienced, yet when a
man handed me a bottle of something that smelt somewhat like essence of
peppermint, the thought of material means was nothing short of
repulsive, and needless to say, it was not taken. At daybreak we found
two lifeboats floating near by, into which we were taken. I was the
last member of the Titanic to board the Carpathia, and
after interviewing her Captain, discarded my wet clothes in favour of a
bunk, in which remained for about half an hour, and was not in bunk or
bed again till we arrived in New York. Reaction or effects from the
immersion - which I was confidently assured would take place - there
were none; and though surprise had been expressed by very many, it only
goes to prove that 'with God all things are possible.'
Acknowledgements
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Courtesy of Brian J. Ticehurst
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